It was not exactly possible to digest the reality
of the situation
when I was in the middle of it
Now
as I fly back
I can start to
But imagining
my father
going through chemo
Is not something i am able to
imagine
I want to be there.
I want to be as far away as I can.
But I also have this life that I’ve built up
I can’t keep leaving
I must strike a balance between being there for the family I have built
and
being there for my parents as they go through the most difficult season of their life.