The Plight of the Writer (Huzun)

It’s strange being a writer at times.  Your writing depends so much on emotion.  The thing is emotion is ever-changing–much like a river.  The question that stands is: How to you harness the power of that river in order to produce something that will allow a reader to care.  If I write to fast, I worry about the quality of my writing.  If I write to slow, I worry about the changing emotion (of me) changing the state of the writing even when that is not what I want.

There is a reason depression and writing are forever bound.  For one, those who suffer from depression seems to have a more poetic view of their world.  Aside from that, the depressed mind is constant.  If you allow yourself to fall into depression, you need not worry about the changing state of your writing.  The question you are left with is: Can you sacrifice your life for your writing.  When writing becomes your life, the question is simple to answer.

For my readers: A poem.

Questions Deep in a Cavern
I go on regular hikes in the mountains behind my house.  I have found a beautiful waterfall where I’ve started to write.  I went there to write about a something very specific.  The idea merged with my surrounding and formed my favorite poem to date.

Final Chapter Outline

I finished the second climax of the novel today.  It puts me past 45,000 words.  When I finished, I realized how barren my outline was for the rest of the novel.  Just a few points here and there. I spent a great deal of time finding historical references to make the final 25,000-35,000 words realistic and fascinating.  I think I spent more time outlining than writing today.  But I am in luck.  The final outline is complete.

With this novel, i have accomplished several goals that I have aimed for.  One: I am writing something I would love to read.  Two: I have a stroyline is not linear throughout.  Three: Love is not the central theme.  Four: Only a single character contains characteristic similar to me (and he actually isn’t involved in the story itself).  All in all, I feel like this novel is my most successful one yet.  And I haven’t even finished it.  I still predict that I will be done before the end of May.

Writing through Thick and Thin

It’s been an up-and-down couple of days.  I spent the entirety of yesterday in Denver, thoroughly trying to enjoy myself.  Unfortunately, sheer tiredness and memories made it almost impossible to enjoy myself.  Luckily, I was able to channel that negative energy into writing and a bit of reading.  I’m gearing up for writing again today.  I hope to channel it once again.

I finished reading “The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo” yesterday.  I am taking a quick detour with “Looking For Alaska” by John Green before finishing off the series later this month.  The writing style in The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo was incredible.  I loved the storyline even though I don’t care much for mysteries.  I guess when you can write, it barely matters what genre you write in.  One day I hope to be able to do that.  It would be incredible to build up such a craft that I could bring any genre to life.

Some day…

Peace Corps & Poetry

Within the next 24 hours, I will send in my medical review for full entry into the Peace Corps.  It’s been a long journey already–simply filling out the paperwork.  After tomorrow, however, it is all in the hands of the government.  In the months ahead, I’ll learn where I am going and when I leave.  It is going to be a 27 month endeavor.  I can’t wait to get started.

I hope to finish as much as possible before I leave.  I will finish this novel before the end of May.  I hope to also edit all four of my novels until they are ready for publication.  If I get to that point, I will let everybody know and present a link to get a severely discounted copy.  I should be able to get all of them done so long as I don’t get called into early duty (which I wouldn’t mind).

While in the Peace Corps, I hope to still have electricity.  If I do, I will continue to update this website with writing.  If I don’t, I will only be able to update periodically when I get access to a computer.  Either way, I will be writing a lot while serving.  Who knows what will come of this adventure.

A poetry update today…

Young Darling
While substituting in an Art Class, I eavesdropped on a conversation between two third graders.  The conversation was so fascinating, that I needed to write about it somehow.  This is a lighthearted poem.  It is also my first attempt at rhyming poetry.

Multiple Climaxes?

With the end of today’s writing, i have entered the core climax of my novel.  With a minor outline through the end, I find that my story will have three climaxes.  A small one at 35,000 words.  The major climax at 50,000 words.  A medium-sized climax around 65,000 words.  I am writing this story under the idea of “write what you would read.”  None of my favorite novels have a storyline shaped like a bell curve.

So, I can’t help but ask: how many climaxes?  Is there a certain formula that works for most stories.  Or does each story need to be taken on a case-by-case basis?  I know certain things don’t work.  I don’t like books that don’t have a true climax or only have one real climax.  Is there a limit to how many?  If so, what is the range?  I’m going to be thinking about this one in the months ahead as I continue to read random books.  Anyone have any ideas?

For the first time in a while, some actual writing.  Here is a poem:

The Wailing Wall
I wrote this poem following a bad breakup.  I tend to allow my mind to wander…and that usually leads to worst-case scenario thoughts.  The combination led to this poem.  It sat in a folder for more than a month.  I rewrote it today and finally like it.

Outlining versus Free Writing

When it comes to short stories and novels, I’ve always had trouble with the question of free writing versus outlining.  In my first two novels, I outlined them to death.  One of the reasons I have problems with them is that over-outlining lead to less of a realistic flow.  A good flow comes building a good base to your story and building realistic characters.  Then you set them free.  The magic happens when you let them do what they would normally do.  You no longer control them.  They are their own person.

However, such free writing is often difficult.  If you don’t set up “checkpoints” for how far the story has to go in a certain amount of time, it will lead nowhere.  I think I have found a good in-between with my new novel.  In no way am I outlining the piece to death.  At the same time, I am putting together the right amount of checkpoints.  I know that these checkpoints cannot be the end-all.  Everything must be flexible.  Otherwise you are trying to stuff a story into a box that it should not fit in.

I’ll try to have a poem or flash fiction piece for you tomorrow.  And yes, I did reach my 2,000 word goal for today.  I also extended the outline toward the finish line.  The end is within reach.  I can almost taste it.

Writer’s Block in the form of a Head Cold

Today is the first day since I started writing my new novel that I haven’t written.  I felt sick most the day.  Then I spent three and a half hours on my dream-job application.  After trying to rest, I went to see a movie with my friends.  Suddenly it’s eleven at night.  The day just ran away from me.  Luckily I am at a change of pace in the novel.  This rest might be exactly what I need to clear my mind and start anew.

I have a lot of free time tomorrow. My plan is to write at least 2,000 words tomorrow to make up for today.  Today wasn’t a total waste.  The second half of the novel is complicated enough that I’ve spent several hours trying to work out specifics.When I sit down and write tomorrow, I hope to knock out some of the final kinks.  I am so tired.  It’s time for me to go pass out.

Until tomorrow.

36,000 Words in 22 Days

Things have settled down considerably in my life.  I am getting used to a house with only two roommates.  There are only a couple weeks left in the semester for them.  I have about a month of possible subbing until the district is out.  I can feel summer hiding around the corner.  And it sounds like we are going to be able to start it off with a kick-ass party.  I feel like I can let out a sigh of relief after hold my breath for far too long.

One of the reasons I like writing quickly is that the tone of a story unintentionally changes when your life changes considerably.  So, as my life changes, I find myself grateful.  I am at the exact middle of my novel.  I knew I wanted this to be the point in the story that everything shifts gears.  Today, I completed the first part of the story.  I wrote a miniature outline for the second half.  It’s going to be a different style and probably more difficult and technical to write.  I almost feel lucky that this is coinciding with a major change in my life.

In honor of my favorite genre, I present you with two influences from the realm of dystopian novels.

The Hunger Game Series by Suzanne Collins
I first read this book in the Fall of 2011.  I heard a few people say it was amazing and realized it was going to be turned into a movie.  I ended up picking it for a new book club.  I didn’t even realize it was dystopian until I started reading it.  I was utterly blown away.  Collins created a beautiful character in Katniss and found a way to end a series that even the like of J.K. Rowling couldn’t achieve.

The Uglies Series by Scott Westerfeld
Another young adult title, but incredible nonetheless. So many dystopain novels are built on the idea that our current world will fail, but the people of the future will still have access to our technology.  The mixture is frightening yet incredible to read.  No one does this better than Scott Westerfeld.  The world he creates (read all four) is unlike anything I have every encountered.

When Life Interferes With Writing

I have always been one to say that writing is 10% skill and 90% experience.  I almost never let my writing get in the way of life.  Doing so would be counterproductive.  If you spend so much time writing that you do not experience life, you writing with suffer significantly.  However, this does cause a problem from time to time.  Sometimes life has so much to throw at you that you don’t have time to write.

The last few days have been…intense.  Although I knew I was learning a lot, I couldn’t let it interfere with my writing completely.  I gave myself plenty of time to figure out what I thought about the situation, and plenty more time to talk it out with my friends.  Luckily, I’ve built a life that gives me plenty of free time.  Thank god.  I had enough time to write and make sure my life was being attended to.  As a result, the drama has concluded and I am staring at the 35,000 words I’ve written over the last 21 days.  Incredible.  With 35,000-45,000 words left to write, I am at or closely approaching the halfway point in my novel.

…and I’ve only been writing for three weeks.

Today’s update includes influences in the way of viral videos.


Sometimes a simple idea can be astounding.  Noah  did just that with his video.  This video shows age and change in a way I have never seen before.  I even started my own Everyday Project.

Drama-Induced Writing

Sometimes drama is unavoidable.  Luckily, I’ve come to realize just how to deal with it.  In the end, I simply channel it.  I’ve always written my best and quickest when experiencing heightened emotions.  So, as the world shifts around me, I’ve grown to simply accept it.  Any stress or frustration that goes along with the events is poured into my writing instead.  So far this morning, I’ve writing 1,300 words.

I’m about to leave for a half-day of subbing at a high school.  I’ll be the gym teacher today.  It’s an easy job.  When I am done, I’ll likely come back to my coffee shop and write even more.  I am quickly approaching the halfway point in the novel.  The further I get, the easier it is to write.  All the characters have shifted into deep people that I would love to get to meet (either to have a conversation with or to punch).  The storyline might get more difficult to write here soon, but I am up for that challenge.

More influences for today.  This time, a bit more music.

Evanescence
When I think of Evanescence, I mean only two albums–Fallen and Origin.  Nothing live and nothing new.  I do not respect this band. They completely and utterly sold out and can’t sing for shit live.  Still, their older albums are fantastic.  Aside from “Air,” Evanescence is one of my favorite bands to listen to while I write.

Ben Folds
In my mind, lyrics are far more important than sound.  On this level, Ben Folds is a genius.  I can laugh or cry along with his discography.  I have a rule when it comes to music.  If I can’t hear what you are saying, I won’t like it.  Ben Folds is able to construct stories in his writing that are unbeatable.  I hope to attend one of his concerts some day.